No one visited her as she stepped in her final years.. But when they did visit her, it was too late and the headstone read “fuck off” :p #shortstory #headstone #grave #she #finalyears #fuckoff

Oh Slavery – I give in

#slavery #slave #recovery #rebirth It’s true taking steps is a lot easier than standing still. Couldn’t be more thankful for slaving 9 hours, 5 days a week. Oh but slavery is so much better for me right now. Not only does my job require constant learning but leaves me with very little time to spend…

– Palpable –

#wordoftheday #palpable #hatred #indifference #meaningisobvious “Indifference so palpable it pisses you off”

Struggling with your own memory is the worst thing ever!


#happiness #ephemeral #stay Albeit, ephemeral I’ll make it stay…

Coffee & smoke

#coffee #bitterness #cigarette #smoke #sleepy #bored I’m at work and I had a strongß cup of coffee. And the aftertaste is like “cigarette smoke”. At least I’m not sleepy anymore.


So.. While I suffer they tell me it’ll be fine. And it continues. And I’m far from fine and it only gets worse. I’m the one losing sleep, focus and my mind above all. Not they. I decided to get off meds and it feels awful. At least I was beginning to get enough sleep….

Aftermath of losing people

It isnt easy listening to someone you adore blurt out something stupid about you. Something that is far from accurate. It isnt easy when they try to rub it in your face for the mere sake of winning an argument. It isnt easy telling them how you dont want to talk to them anymore. It…

Of life and pain

My relationship with life is of pain. My relationship with God is of pain. My relationship with everything is of pain. When I Prayed? I didnt know God all that much. I had heard about him. yes. From my mother. But when I got to know him, see him, meet him, I could no longer…

The beast

#beast #surprised #stronger #laugh #demons She looked at me in surprise. And then she’s like ‘You have changed. You’re stronger than the last time we talked.’ What do you do? How do you respond? I laughed. And I said I felt stronger. I did. I have indeed. I have realised that I have come to…


Cant say what makes me cry more, the books I have been reading or my own misery. Maybe both. Understanding a writer, burning in their hells with them is painful . I swear. Life is if anything so much better today. But… There’s and will always be a void.